I am eight weeks into my Core Power Yoga Teacher Training. Eight weeks. I never realized how much one can learn, grow, change their body, mind and spirit, and their entire outlook on life in eight weeks. When I started I knew I was accomplishing a dream that had been showing up on my collages for the past ten years. I knew it was good. I could never have known how good. Like jumping off the edge of a cliff into an abyss, one can never know what is down there until we leap and begin our descent, or in this case, ascent. I look at my collages now and it is eerie. The yoga, the scenes, the friends, I am clear I have created my life straight out of my visions, dreams, wishes, writings and lived those creative art pieces into existence. Now when I collage, it is not just that I am envisioning a future, I am actually revealing to myself what dreams are under the surface that I am already manifesting, conscious and not.
I did not expect to learn so much in such a short amount of time. I stand here now a much wiser woman, clearer about the road I am traveling and paradoxically ever more baffled at the magnificent wonder of it all. I don't know where I am going, but each new place I show up seems to me to be divinely orchestrated and my faith in that is growing all the time. I have been profoundly touched by partner yoga, Yogassage, Sanskrit, Kirtan, rich Hindu Mythology, Cadaver lab, and the hero's journey that we all take at some point, in varying ways and degrees, as we make our way home to ourselves. I did not expect to fall so in love with the people in my class. I did not expect to gain so much inner strength and will to try new things, as simple as a tri-pod headstand, or hand-stand, but in these endeavors, I have unlocked a piece of my heart that I shut down long ago out of fear and a story called, "I can't do it." And now, I can only say that I am giddy like a child after every first attempt at something new and for the poses I have achieved for the first time, it's like a new me is re-born in that moment, a me with a shining third Chakra power center! Core Power is about so much more than abs. Those abs represent the energy of one who endeavors to stretch and expand-mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Plus, it is great fun being upside down and falling all over the place!
I never expected to uncover that touch is a passion of mine. I didn't know that could be a passion. I desire to cultivate connection and touch amongst we humans, spending our time together using our bodies to stretch, support, deepen, release, strengthen, energize, heal. I realize this path I am on reveals little pieces at a time until, before we know it, we have cultivated rich depth, appreciation and capability as we have walked the good red road. When I am old, my hair is gray, and there are lines upon my face...I know, in many ways, I will be the same awake, rhythmic, beating heart that I am today, with all of me that I was at one and two and three, and thirty-three plus the capacities of the me that is growing ever more deeply into each moment, which becomes this vast future of miracles and new possibilities for expansion and awareness and service. I don't know where I am going, but I know I trust, ever more deeply all the time, in the perfection of each step being laid down before me. I pray, dear God, wash away all the wounds, sores, scars and tensions of my heart and allow it to open like a beacon of light, shining to light the way for us all. May all our hearts be joined in the reality of All is One and may we play, tumble, and hand stand all the way home!
